Shattered. Absolutely shattered. I’m pretty much an idiot. And even still, I can’t possibly hate him. Because I got to see the amazing person he is, and I could never hate that guy that I know is there somewhere <3
To know that you doubt what I feel for you kills me.
When the soul suffers too much, it develops a taste for misfortune.– Albert Camus (The First Man: Le Premier Homme)
So much love in my heart =) Willing to share…? Haha
Sorry about the whiny, depressing posts of late guys. They will stop now. Nope. No more. I’m done with this shit. Things have changed. I let my guard down. But now it’s back up. And it’s time to fuck shit up.
No great mind has ever existed without a touch of madness.– Aristotle (via myquotelibrary)
Anonymous asked: Do you think the world is getting better, worse or neither?
Self destruction is what I do best, apparently.
I can’t fucking handle this anymore. I can’t. I didn’t fucking deserve this. Any of it. I’m never fucking good enough for anything or anyone. This is always how it is. Fuck.
Maybe I should give up. But while I can still see that glimmer of hope that you’re showing me, I’ll keep fighting for it. But if you keep acting like this, one day I just might decide not to be there as backup anymore.
Fuck the world then. Fuck. Let’s get wasted then, why the fuck not.
Feeling sick to my stomach. Fuck this.
The more this goes on, the more I begin to believe the worst possible scenario. What was I to you really? Was it all just a really well played out lie? I really don’t want to believe that, but hey you won’t talk to me to clear my mind…
Down the end of my street, hidden away behind the houses, is a rainforest. Not many people used to know about it. It’s weird, you walk out of my house, across the street and go through these bushes, and instantly you’re not in suburbia anymore. It’s this beautiful, isolated forest, semi creepy but hey. When I was a kid I’d be down there everyday. It was my escape place....
And once you start looking, you find things you never wanted to know. I am so stupid.